Thursday, 22 March 2012

One of the biggest giants here in NZ - fear of man!

After writing that blog about the terminator, I realise I need to share something that I have found in New Zealand but it is not only New Zealand but everywhere I believe.  One of the biggest strongholds if you like that I have come across in the spirit is the fear of man, is of intimidation.  I may have shared this before but I find it in almost every church we head into, in the spirit, the thing that hits me and tries to stop me walking in my authority and who God has called me to be, or what he has called me to do in that place, is the fear of man.

That comes out of that place as I said of not knowing who we individually are in Christ.  As 'Fathers Heart' courses have taught it, the "orphan spirit" if you like.  We don't know that we are each special and individually crafted and needed and wanted by God, then we compare ourselves with others, we fight with our brothers and sisters in Christ, we judge ourselves against others, we lift ourselves up over others or put ourselves down.   We are intimidated by anyone who may have a greater anointing or authority instead of honouring them.  We are intimated and feel like nothing, we compare ourselves, fight for our rights, rise up in anger, try and take control over situations, whatever it is because of what other people may carry instead of embracing & honouring all the different giftings' & anointings' that others have and become a people that rise up together and take dominion of our land.  Instead we pull each other down to our level instead of rising up to what the Lord says about us and standing in that.

Honestly this has been one of the hardest things for me to overcome myself,  but as the Lord has shown me who I am in him and that I am hidden in Christ and that no weapon formed against me can prosper and that everything the enemy has intended for harm God will turn it for good, then I have stepped out and loved on Him the way he has called me to love on him.   I have been obedient to the things he has asked of me no matter how stupid to the world it may seem and in that seen huge breakthroughs in other people's lives, as well as my own.  And when I haven't been able to do the small thing he has asked of me by thinking it through and thinking what other people might think, I have come to realise, actually I was bowing to man rather than God and so pride & idolatry was an issue that I needed to sort out.  And when I have risen to be who God has called me to be,  I have seen people around me set free to be who they are called to be.  Also when I have been obedient to God in the small & the bigger things he asks of me, I see the anointing that I walk in grow and be more effective in the lives around me.

There is a saying, "hurt people, hurt people but healed people heal people".  Lets be a people that are continually asking God to reveal the things in our own lives that we are bowing to, the giants that we need to learn how to overcome  & speak to, so that we can be a people that bring healing in our land, in our homes, in our marriages, in our relationships and that we together can be a body of people who rise up in our different authorities and anointings and bring peace and healing to our land that the Lord has placed us in.  When we were on the mission field one of the aims of the organisation was to be 'life long language learners' and we too here need to be life long language learners of a love that casts out all fear!

The Terminator rises again!

The movie terminator is for me the most horrible movie I cannot watch it because of this continual robot that just keeps on coming and will not die!  You think you have got him one minute and the next it gets back up and away we go again.  That is how it feels sometimes with the giants in our lives, we think they have been slain and then they rise to live again another day.

In thinking about this I think why is it that the Terminator will not die.  What is it that makes it come back again and again.  In Christ the victory has been won.  In Rev 12:11 "the accuser has been hurled down"  how?  By the blood of the lamb and the word of the testimony!   Christ has already overcome whatever giant you have, and have had, in your life and that is why the blood is so important.  That is why sharing the testimonies of Christ in our lives has so much power because it testifies of the victory that has been won.

Why is it then that if the victory has already been won, we seem to keep coming under attack?
I believe it's because we actually have not come to fully realise and understand what has actually taken place on the cross.  I believe we have not actually come to understand what it is to be a true 'son' or 'daughter' of the King of Kings, Lord of Lords.  I hesitate to say (in all humility) that it is actually because we do not 'believe' because the word says if you believe you will say to this mountain move and it will move.  I believe it is because we have not really understood the authority that the Lord gave us way back in Genesis and then again at the cross, in which he gave us the earth as our dominion to rule and reign over.

The Lord has been taking Jim and I on a journey over the past four years of learning to enter the 'rest' of God.  What he has shown us in that journey is basically that our faith has been over time, as walking as a Christian, been shaped and moulded by unbelief, actually shaped and moulded by how the world sees things, and added them to our belief in Christ.  Shaped and moulded by what we have seen, and our experiences in life, rather than the word of God.  And that place of learning to come into the 'rest' of God is actually a journey of coming into belief that what His word says, He will do.  It's been and continues to be a place where we are learning the authority we have in Christ and learning to walk in it in such a way that when I speak to that mountain it will move, whatever mountain it is.  It's been learning to rest that its not anything I have done or can do that makes things change, it's simply a faith that rests on what God can do and has already done, because his word says it and he cannot lie.  So when that terminator rises again to try to destroy me, that I don't need to run and hide from it, but simply that I can turn and stand up to it without fear, without anxiety, without panic and speak to it and it will die!  Truth sets you free and so to slay the giant we have to speak the truth to it.  The truth of the word, the truth of what Gods says into that situation, the truth that Christ has already overcome it.

My husband said something really profound to me a little while ago and one in which I am learning to do and yet something he found himself having to address again as well the other day and that was "In order to slay the giants, you have to face them".    All of us have many giants in our lives, all different but in essence, the same giant.  We have a choice each day to let that giant overcome us, or for us to turn and face it like David did with Goliath.  He didn't trust in himself to slay the giant, but he knew his God and what he could do.

This is a continual process in the Lord in coming to understand who we are in him and sometimes we get it wrong.  The key is when you get it wrong, don't come under condemnation but rather just get back up and try again.  We all have unbelief in our lives at some level, but as the disciples said to Jesus, "Lord forgive our unbelief" and so we repent and ask the Lord to forgive us our unbelief and help us to believe!  There is so much more I want to see and need to see in my own life and in the lives around me, in walking in this authority where "every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord",  but I am choosing not to let the disappointments and failures of the past hold me in that place but I am pressing onto that goal.  I want to be a person like Peter that the presence of the Lord was so powerful in him that people were healed in his shadow, or a person that believes that when Jesus spoke and said that "we would do even more than him", that I would come into some understanding of what that means and looks like on a daily basis.

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

Are you a 'boy racer' and live for the moment or is your attitude that of Christ Jesus who made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant. Phil 2:1-11

Last night I had a couple of dreams and in these I saw people having fun in the spiritual realm, playing if you like with the things of the spirit.  And other people were buying gifts for people or helping people.  There were almost two camps of people, those who were having fun in the spirit, but it was all about them and short lived fun, while the other people were investing in and helping other people.

One of these dreams I saw like young boys, boy racers really coming up the hill but racing in their cars and zooming around some who were already there, but then racing off the other side and then I saw three of them walking back with their right arm cut off and now just limbs.  The others in the car never came back, they had taken off in a different direction to get away from the authorities because of the mess they had caused.

When pondering this I really felt that God was saying that people are going to rise quickly in the things of the spirit, but like that of boy racers, think they own the world and are invincible and in the process will cause accidents.  Some will return for help but will have lost their strength, spiritual power in the Lord, and others will fall away.   As I thought about why they didn't stay up on the top of the mountain I remembered I saw the timing on a clock of 7:18.  Now I don't know what that means exactly but part of it means judgement and part of it means trying to jump ahead of the timing of God.  This is often something that happens, especially with the youth.  In their excitement and fun of things they often don't see the long term picture, rather they live for the moment, but God has more for them and those around them than the moment they are in right now.

There was a difference in these dreams with different people, as I said earlier one was about helping others and the other was all about self.  Phil 2:21 says "For everyone looks out for his own interests, not those of Jesus Christ."

When I was sharing these dreams this morning with Jim he got the scripture in Phillipans 2:5 which says "Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant."  As I looked at these verses the ones above really stood out as well and sums up I think what the Lord was saying to me...  2:1-5  If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.  Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.  Each of you should look not only to your own interest, but also to the interest of others.

To follow Christ is to follow his example of how he walked.  It's to love others,  to understand who you are in him but not to abuse the power & authority you have in him.  He knew what power he had in his hand, yet he did not use it for his own glory or exaltation, but for the good of others.  I believe there is a warning here for all of us as we grow in the things of the spirit.  We are going to experience things we have not experienced before, its going to be fun and exciting, and we are going to understand a little of the power we have in our hand through Jesus, but be careful that you don't jump ahead of what God has for you thinking you have it all, that you take the time to learn and grow in the things of God which actually lead you to more than you think.   We get a taste of Kingdom power and think that is it, but something I am learning is that if I wait in the patience with God and allow him to teach and guide me at the pace he has for me and allow him to show me the hidden things in my life that need adjusting, then he has bigger things than my mind had originally comprehended - and its never just about me.  The more the Lord has taught me to wait and grow in the things of the spirit, the more I realise how much more people could have been hurt along the way through my misuse or misunderstanding of what the Lord had given me.  Not only other people but myself included because how I do I handle the persecution when it comes?  Will I stand up under it or will I lose some of my strength in the Lord through it?

I believe we are coming into a time where we will see the 'power of God' manifested through us but we need to know how to handle that power.  Will we keep the spirit of God of humility and servanthood and allow God to grow us and change us so we become people of strength in him that can help many people, or will we use it for our own desires?

Monday, 19 March 2012

Kiwi Culture verses Kingdom Culture

The above is the title of a book that I have on my heart.  Whether or not it ever makes it there we will see but in the process I want to put some thoughts down and see what it opens up.

I grew up with phrases like "God helps those who help themselves" or "Too spiritually minded to be any earthly good".  There are many many more that I am sure you know of - I would love to hear them so please blog me about them or Facebook me so I can add them.  But phrases like that that we grew up with that actually have become a part of world view and things we base our lives on.  Things of our culture that are so much a part of culture that we think is actually a part of the bible or at the very least is no big deal in God's eyes; like sarcasm.  I have had to question some of these phrases - "where does it say in the bible God helps those who help themselves?"  "What actually is sarcasm and does it build up and encourage people?" etc.

Jim and I lived overseas for five years on the Tibetan Plateau.  We were part of an inter-denominational, multi-cultural team of people.  We were the only kiwis.  In that place we were rubbed like sand and rubbed in such a way that it eventually made pearls.  As we were rubbed, our culture rubbed others.  But in that rubbing we began to see what was God's way - Kingdom Culture, and what was our way - Kiwi culture.
We were forced to confront issues, we were forced into unity.  We were such a tightly knitted group of people who were the only ones there for each other in a very harsh environment.  We cried together, we fought together, we celebrated together, we prayed together and we forgave together - we learnt to love!

In our culture in New Zealand (or wherever we are) we don't often have that pressure of a melting pot that makes us deal with things.  If we don't like something or someone we often choose to move on rather than cross the bridge that would bring reconciliation and healing.

In that process of learning to love, I learnt too some of the ways of our culture that other cultures don't carry and so don't accept.  We all deal with things in different ways but in the end we have to learn what is God's way in things and not cultural understandings, wisdom or world views.  There are things in our lives whether it be a recession, a world war, our family life and upbringing etc, all things that contribute to our thinking and ways of living and acting that define who we are and what we believe.  But that does not necessarily mean that it is God's way.

Lets keep looking at his word to see what it says.  Lets challenge some of the phrases that people so off handedly throw out there to see whether they line up with scripture and if not, lets speak truth into them. Lets be a people who don't run away from issues but are willing to confront them head on and bring reconciliation, peace and light into our situations.

"A man's enemies will be the members of his own household" Matt 10:36

Recently we have been pondering how to deal with situations in our family that don't line up with the word.
What action do we need to take?  Are we being too harsh?  Do we accept the behaviour or be considered by those around us as "too radical" or "too black and white"?  "Where is grace in all of this?
How do we love the sinner but hate the sin?  What about forgiveness?  What is the role of discipline?   What makes that sin any worse than lying?  What is true love?  And there are a lot more questions going through the mind in how to work through this and know God's will and desire for the situation and the person.

And firstly to say we have not come to any conclusions and are growing and learning day by day in this but I want to throw it out there.
In Matt 10:34-39 says "Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth.  I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.  For I have come to turn "a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law again her mother-in-law, a man's enemies will be the members of his own household."  Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.

I have often been challenged by this scripture and in fact challenged others with this as they have faced various situations and questions in their own life.  When our daughter Kate was 10, the Lord called us to what others considered a pretty extreme action but one in which we knew the Lord had asked us to do and that was for her to go to a boarding school in Thailand.  We were living in China at the time.  She was an only child (not by choice) so as you can imagine this took a huge toll on us all.  But the Lord had given a vision and he had said that in order for that vision to be fulfilled, we had to sacrifice our only child.  Now many may judge that - (and did), but we know what the Lord spoke and we stepped out in faith on that, trusting that God knows the plans, both for us and for her.  God spoke to me at the time about the story of Joseph and although Kate would go through many trials, she would come through it and into a place of prominence.  And I still very much believe this, yet through that journey she did have some huge struggles & continues to, but I know it is shaping her to be the woman God has called her to be.

I have learnt that often in our own homes as the scripture says above that "A man's enemies will be the members of his own household" why - because we love them the most and for us to make stands that might mean we lose our children, our parents or whatever relationship we have with them, is a huge deal and we don't want to take that stand out of fear or whatever reason.  We are called as Christians to live a life that lives up with the word, to be standard bearers in a world where the standards are not even seen.  We are called to be a people that stand up for truth, justice, righteousness etc.  But often we are given over to compromise for the sake of relationship.

We live in a world where living with one's partner is the accepted norm.  Where internet porn is common place.  Where homosexuality and lesbian relationships are legally married.  Where everything we watch on television has some sexual content to it.  Where putting down people, gossip and judgement are everyday soap opera shows.  Where sarcasm is considered how we love people yet it is a form of cutting people down.  Where respect to elders is non-existent.  Where anger or raising your voice is a way of getting what we want done.  Where foul language is part of a sentence.

We are called to completely the opposite of the ways of the world.  We are called to transform societies to the ways of the Kingdom.  Yet people in our families and ourselves included, at times go down paths that the world promotes as acceptable and the norm.  We often don't know where to draw the line.  What makes disrespect, rebellion & swearing any different than homosexuality and so on.

None of us have all the answers.  All of us are learning and growing in grace and forgiveness.   One thing I am learning is that without grace,  I fall into judgement and condemnation of others.   In Romans it says "Where sin abounds, grace abounds all the more".  I am learning that I am not perfect, that I don't have all the answers.  God continues to constantly remind me of my own sins, of my own weaknesses, why - so that I can give grace to others and also so I can grow in righteousness.  Because without his forgiveness of my mistakes I am no better than anyone else.  Even with his forgiveness of my sins I am still no better than anyone else.  We are all equal in his eyes.  The Lord's prayer talks about "Forgive me as I forgive others their sins" - this is a daily prayer.

I do want to encourage you to ponder the standards the Lord has set and how we bring these standards into our homes & lives in a way that brings grace and honour to the people the Lord has entrusted us with or put around us.  To love in such a way that that love leads to repentance.  As you become a standard bearer where people stop themselves mid sentence swearing/gossiping etc as they know what you stand for.    That his perfect love casts out all fear in such a way it brings change because people feel safe to be who they are, right where they are at and yet want to change.  How to discipline without bringing fear & judgement because what father who loves his children does not discipline?

As I say, I have not yet fully mastered this so if you are praying please pray for us as well in this.  We want to be people who are known as people who follow the Lord both in word and in action.
With love,

Thursday, 15 March 2012

To surrender whats' in your hand is your spiritual act of worship

Recently I was in a meeting and the Lord showed me that to give him what is in my hands is my spiritual act of worship to him.  To come with him with open hands offering whatever they might be holding whether its dreams and visions, our children, our ministries, our jobs, our finances, our spouses - whatever is in our hand that we hold onto.  We need to be in a place of constant surrender to the Lord daily, for his way, his perfect way, to be allowed to be made manifest in our lives.

Romans 12:1-2  says "Therefore, I urge you brothers in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship.  Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."

The Lord has shown me for some time now that he is taking us into 'new' things.  He showed me that I have learnt to dance to the music, to certain songs if you like and have got really good at dancing to those songs, but now he is wanting me (us I believe as a body) to dance to music but to a tune we have not heard before.  In that though we don't need to worry because we already know how to dance to the music and so when we hear the new sounds, we will be able to dance to it because he has already taught us how to dance.  Its' like we have learnt the steps as say a ballet dancer might learn the basic steps  of how to dance but then progresses using those same basic steps as the foundation steps to different pieces.  And that is what I believe the Lord is asking.

I believe as a body of Christ, He is asking us to surrender what's in our hand, the way we have been used to doing things, the way it has worked before so that he can bring the new things in our lives, whatever that may look like.  Knowing that although its different we can still move through the power of the Holy Spirit into the things he has.  To keep in that place of surrender as we don't know how to do it, but the Holy Spirit will teach us all the things that we need to know.  That if we keep in the rest and trust of the Lord, that it will work out as He intended, but if we try to work it out, put it into a programme or strategy that we are used to, it will not work and we need to be in constant surrender to the Lord and the Holy Spirit leading and guiding us in the 'new sound' the Lord is wanting to bring.

I recently had another picture where I was sitting in the back of a four wheel drive vehicle and we were on a road that was muddy and slippery, a track that many people had not used before.  Jim and I were sitting in the back quite at peace as the drivers maneuvered the road as they were used to it.  But as we drove we saw many other vehicles falling off the sides of the road and the ambulance there collecting the many people who had driven off the road, because they weren't used to that sort of road.  Many people are used to the highways but are not used to the mud tracks.  In this picture the Lord was telling me if we just rest and sit in the passenger seat and let him drive and maneuver the way we will be fine, but if we try to take the steering wheel & be in control, we will come off the road as this is not a road we have travelled before.

We are coming into a season I believe where the road will be a little slippery but if we can surrender what's in our hand to the Lord, trusting in his leading and guiding and knowing the way we are to go,  then we will have no problems.  So I encourage you today to surrender what is in your hand to the Lord trusting in him that all things work together for good for those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose (Rom 8).  That he knows the plans he has for each one of us, plans to prosper and not to harm, plans to give a hope and a future whatever that may look like in the process. (Jer 29:11) And Eph 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen"

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

Do you have time for breakfast?

I had this dream last night where I saw my sister busy working in her restaurant.  She had advertised in the paper and she was so busy she had no time for her family.  I was sitting eating breakfast with my other sister feeling almost lazy in comparison with the first sister, but knowing that I was not lazy, but busy too in a different way.  I had no idea when she would have time for her family.  She was doing what she loved, she was bringing people into her restaurant and it was going really well, but her family life was suffering.

In pondering on this, it speaks for itself really.  But added to that is that we can often compare with one another or judge one another in the way things are being done.  I think regularly of Nehemiah these days and how we are all called to rebuild the wall, but we all have different parts of the wall we are called to build and look after and each part is important to the whole wall.  So lets please as a body of Christ, do not compare with one another thinking we have the right way to build his church.  Each is valid, each love the Lord, each desire to build his Kingdom.  My warning is don't be so busy doing what you love doing in the Lord and not have time for those around you.

We can be so busy we don't have time for breakfast.  Breakfast in dream interpretation can mean a new day.  Are we so busy that we don't have time to see the new thing that the Lord is doing.  We can be so tied up doing what we are doing, that we are not aware of the new thing he is doing.  Be a people who take time and have breakfast, be a people who sit and listen for what the Lord is doing today and not miss out on it because of busyness.

Thursday, 8 March 2012

Be prepared : Dressed with food in the fridge and water in the tank!

I had a dream two nights ago and in this dream the youth of our church came to my home.  I was in my pyjamas.  But as they came I went to the toilet and got dressed.  I also found that there wasn't food in the fridge or water in the water tank.  But the youth made themselves at home and I was quite at peace with that and hospitality and relationship happened.  Next I saw that I was sitting at table on the street with other people eating, and as we sat, I saw rivers of water flowing out of our houses onto the streets to the people who needed water.

As I pondered this I believe what the Lord is saying is that the youth revival is about to happen very shortly and we need to be a people who are ready, prepared, dressed in the clothes of righteousness, not sleeping, with food being the word of God to feed them, and the water tanks full so full of the Holy Spirit, and as we rest, like in Psalm 23 beside still waters he will  "set a feast before us in the presence of our enemies"  & out of the relationship and fellowship with each other,  it will flow onto the streets where the presence of the Lord is needed the most.

Matt 5 - 7 The Beatitudes & The battle belongs to the Lord!!!

I so love reading the Beatitudes.  My most favourite part of the bible I think, one in which when things are coming at me I just love to read and feel immersed by his word that gives me life and direction.  Sometimes even get Jim to read it over me, just brings peace.

Anyway I want to share this as something the Lord has been showing me this week is that we most get hurt by the people we respect and honour the most.  The words that those people bring can hurt right deep in our soul and it can damage quite badly.

God has been taking us on a journey that many people don't understand, have not experienced and perhaps don't want to.  God sometimes calls us to do/say things that we don't understand and can't work out in our heads, but after being obedient to him, see why and see how powerful it was.  But in the process people judge us, judge our motives, judge our heart.  People often misunderstand us.  For me that has been one of the hardest and most hurtful things of my journey -  being misunderstood by the people I love.  But the Lord is teaching me that I am to 'dance to the audience of one', that I need to hide in the shelter of his wing, that he protects me no matter what people think, say or do,  I have to come to that place that I trust in him alone and not in man.  Paul writes "I care very little if I am judged by you or any human court (1 Cor 4:3-4) indeed, I do not even judge my-self.  My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent.  It is the Lord who judges me."  We need to come into a place where it is the Lord who judges our heart and we are innocent or guilty to him and in that, need to change depending on what he says.

But as I say it has been one of the hardest things for me as the arrows of the enemy come at me.
In the Beatitudes Matt 5:11 says, "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.  Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."
I have to keep trusting in him, keep checking my heart that my conscience is clear, keep looking at Jesus and the words of his that bring life, that bring encouragement and like that above to know that I am blessed in his Kingdom, that great is my reward in heaven.  Matt 10:28  Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul.

I believe we are in a time where we are called to stand and be the people of God he has called us to be.  In so doing we are going to be persecuted, misunderstood, judged  but knowing that GREAT IS OUR REWARD IN HEAVEN!!!  Thank you Lord and when we learn and come into a place that those words no longer hold power, we are free in another area of our life!  Words only hold the power that we give them.  Saying that, I don't have it all together all the time, but less and less am I feeling the effects of the wounds at the hand of my brother.:   Feel free to pray for me in this.:)  Thank you Jesus!

In heavenly armour we'll enter the land
The battle belongs to the Lord
No weapon that's fashioned against us will stand
The battle belongs to the Lord

And we sing glory, honour
Power and strength to the Lord
We sing glory, honour
power and strength to the Lord.

When the power of darkness comes in like a flood
the battle belongs to the Lord
He's raised up a standard, the power of his blood
the battle belongs to the Lord

When your enemy presses in hard, do not fear
the battle belongs to the Lord
Take courage, my friend, your redemption is near
the battle belongs to the Lord!

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Prov 4:23 "Above all else guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life"

"Sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me"  Yeah right!

Peoples' comments and judgements toward us hurt very much and hinder our walk with the Lord and with others, but the Lord would say this morning from Proverbs 4:23 to "guard our heart for it is the wellspring of life."

God judges very differently than man and we see in the story of 1 Samuel 16 where the Prophet Samuel is called to anoint a new King and in verses 6&7  "Samuel saw Eliab and thought, 'Surely the Lord's anointed stands here before the Lord'.  But the Lord said to Samuel 'Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him.  The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.  Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
How quickly we judge by what we see and hear, but the Lord calls us not to do that, but to look at the heart.

Psalm 139:23-24  "Search me, O God and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting"
This has been and continues to be our journey with the Lord.  One way the Lord has shown me over the past few years of the state of my heart, has been through dreams.  I would have a dream that would show I was frightened in a situation, show that I was hurt by something or show some sort of attitude. In these dreams and the processing of these, he would show me the truth that needed to be there instead.  For instance "His perfect love casts out all fear" so I would question, why was I afraid and then speak God's truth to the situation.  If His perfect love casts out all fear then I needed a deeper revelation of His love for me and the truth of what the love looked like.  If I was anxious about something then I would ask myself, 'why was I anxious?'  1 Peter 5:7  "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you" so I would learn that I needed to give him the things I was anxious about trusting that he would look after those things as I surrendered them to him.  Phil 4:6  "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus".

Prov 25:2  "It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of Kings.  As the heavens are high and the earth is deep, so the hearts of kings are unsearchable".
We don't know the true state of our heart sometimes, but if we are willing to test out our hearts, then the Lord will show us.   Sometimes like the verse above we need to search out what the Lord is trying to say.  Dreams can be one way where the Lord is speaking to us in a way we can understand - like a parable - but then we need to search for the deeper hidden things; the gold.  As I have searched out what the Lord has been saying and have been learning to speak the truth which sets me free into it, the Lord has brought greater and greater freedom into my life and especially from the mindsets and words that come from man.

Psalm 51:10-12  "Create in me a pure heart, O God and renew a steadfast spirit within me.  Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.  Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."

The Lord is wanting to take us from glory to glory and for that to happen we need to ask the prayer above - to be willing for the Lord to create in us a pure heart.    Matt 5:8  "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God".

Monday, 5 March 2012

New growth & freedom comes out of repentance & forgiveness.

Last night I had a dream and in this dream I found myself apologising to people that I had hurt, not realising it or having the intention to hurt, but for them they had felt judged by me.   As I went to apologise to different people,  some would receive it but others wouldn't.  I realised too in this dream that some had put me on a petadstal which in fact is wrong honour.  Yes, we are called to honour but in a healthy way and we are called to honour each person, not just those in 'higher' positions if you like and because they were in higher positions people expected them to be more than they were and not make any mistakes at all and so when they make mistakes they are judged severely.  The word does say to judge those in teaching positions or leadership more severely, which is true but also we need to be realistic that people make mistakes and we need to receive their apologies just like anyone else and to forgive them and release them to continue on in their journey.

Anyway in my dream I had made amends with people to the best of my ability even though some didn't receive it and then as I went on a friend gave me some fresh salad straight from the garden for me to eat.

I woke up this morning feeling so much lighter in my spirit and free and I felt that the Lord was wanting me to share this with you as it says in the word that the things he tells in the secret shout from the rooftops.

We are all on a journey and sometimes we get it wrong.  We hurt people, we judge people - intentionally or unintentionally but we have to come into a place of humility to one another and before God and seek out the person if necessary and ask for forgiveness.  Whether that person receives it or not is up to them, but for your part you are released and no longer held accountable to the Lord for your actions as you have sought reconciliation.  "If you cannot forgive people how can your heavenly father forgive you?"
In my dream after seeking that reconciliation I was given new fresh food to eat and as I said I woke up feeling really light and I believe when we do what the Lord asks us to do, he takes us on, he gives us new fresh things, he lightens our load and we feel released and set free.

So I encourage you today, if there are people that you need to ask forgiveness from, or people you just need to forgive in your spirit do so, so that the Lord can take you onto a whole new place and level in him, one of freedom and lightness and joy and release.

Thank you Jesus for your forgiveness, help us to forgive others and to ask forgiveness if necessary from others Lord as you are the father or reconciliation, that is why you came to reconcile us to yourself.

Sunday, 4 March 2012


What to say - its been a long time!
I seem to have put most of our stuff on the now Glory Release Ministries facebook page so if you want to catch up on anything over the past few months
then thats the place to go.
But perhaps now the times are a changing again, another new season. Is it time to head into a website so that more people can access what the Lord is doing but
will the blog surfice? I am so not up with things and don't want to go into too much depth on the whole computer scene because its not my calling or gifting, rather
the Lord would have me spend my time more on him, his word and releasing what he has given me rather than websites and the like but he has the people to do all that so if you are gifted in this area and want to help - would love to hear from you?! :)

Anyway as you know our heart is and calling is for a "Prophetic Preaching Healing Ministry" and it seems the Lord has us renovating the house 'church" of God but we seem to get the toilets and the bathrooms, the places where there is a need for repentance and cleansing. I have learnt over the past few years that this seems to be an area of the house that is the last to do, the area that needs the work but there are not many who want to do it and yet it seems to be the area that the Lord has given us to do. Like the hidden things sometimes are the most important of the body for the whole body to function correctly. But over the past years I have learnt that actually the churches don't want that call for repentance and cleansing and yet without it the body can't function in fullness and in the plan that God had best designed his body to function it. But I believe that now is the time where the line in the sand is being drawn. I believe that now is the time that you/we need to choose whom this day who we will serve. We are no longer in a time that you can sit on the fence but the Lord is returning for his bride and that unless you are dressed in the appropriate clothes for the wedding feast you will be kicked out of the wedding feast.

So let me encourage, please respond to the quiet small voice of the Lord, and sometimes the loud banging voice of the Lord and what he might be saying to you so that you can come into everything he has for you - do not be like Pharoh where he hardened his heart but keep your heart soft and respond to what he might be saying knowing that he only has good for you and your generations. His desire is that none shall be lost, his desire is for you to know his heart for you, his blessing for you, his freedom for you, his joy for you because everything he made was good and his plans are for good. Sometimes we have to go through the fire to understand this and so we need to give thanks for the fire - to give thanks in all circumstances even when we don't like it but knowing and believing by faith that everything works together for good for those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose (Rom 8)

With love