Pardon me, my Lord but.....

It's been a challenging few days as I have sat and questioned the Lord on many things. Like Gideon in chapter 6:13 where he writes:

"Pardon me, my lord," But if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our ancestors told us about when they said, 'Did not the Lord bring us up out of Egypt? But now the Lord has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian."

The Lord turned to him and said, "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian's hand. Am I not sending you?'Pardon me, my lord," Gideon replied, "but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family." The Lord answered, "I will be with you and you will strike down all the Midianites, leaving none alive."

But in the asking and seeking come the answers. If Gideon can ask the questions so can you and I. If our God is a covenant God who is faithful to his promises and he cannot lie and all his promises are yes and amen and its not dependant on our goodness or striving to make it happen, then sometimes we need to ask him some questions and He is not slow in answering!

Earlier last week the Lord took me to Jeremiah 33:3 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know'. When God answers sometimes he reveals things in our heart we didn't know was there which is a good thing because it brings us into truth, it makes us face some things perhaps we haven't wanted to face and bring us to health and healing.

As I have asked and God has answered, he has put before me the reality of the 'vision' of the Apostolic Resource Centre, the 'land and buildings' and for the first time it has come into view the property that ticks all the boxes that we have had listed on our vision page since 2010 and I find even in the seeing the promise in reality that my faith to 'go again' even though it is right in front of me, has no energy to make it happen. We had just given away all the chairs we have had stored and carpet that we had been given over the years toward the vision and then the Lord brings it back into view. Sometimes we need to let things go so that God can do it the way he has planned.

So I share this with you,

a) to ask for prayer for ourselves as I find myself with little strength and little faith to 'go again'.

b) to ask for prayer for this venue we have found that if it is the Lords will over this property then he would hold it for us, bringing confirmation that everything would come into line. That the finances would come through according to the strategy the Lord would give.

c) to encourage You who is reading this that perhaps you need also to 'go again' and not give up as the Lord has said through many prophetic voices that 2020 is a year of great excitement in the body of Christ, promises being fulfilled and unprecedented miracles taking place, so whatever is your need today then there is a miracle waiting for you. You only need to ask.

Matt 9:28-29

"Do you believe that I am able to do this?"

"Yes Lord" they replied.

Then he touched their eyes and said

"According to your faith let it be done to you."

and their sight was restored.

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