Monday, 3 December 2012

Nailed to the cross ...by other peoples judgements


We nailed Jesus to the cross with our judgements, our misunderstandings, our misinterpretations and yet today we continue to do the same thing to those around us.  We nail people to a cross, we crucify people with our judgements towards them, our thoughts or attitudes, our misunderstandings or interpretation of things.  We hold people in a place that they cannot get out of - but for Jesus!

I was sitting in church the other day and while the pastor was preaching this thought came to me and I looked at my own life and the judgements that people have made toward me which have held me in that place.  It's a bit like a smoker feeling the judgements of how people feel about them smoking and because of that judgement it moves them to rebel even more and continue doing that as they fight for the right to be who they are.  I really felt this was deep revelation that the Lord was showing me.  Why am I the way I am, what are the judgements that have been made toward me that I have picked up along the way that I have felt in the spirit and in which I have rebelled to that judgement and continued on in something because I want people to love me for who I am, not what they want me to become.

I had a dream a while ago and in this dream the pastor of a church had a big speaker come in and he received an offering but the speaker told him to give that offering to us and to offer us a preaching slot but the pastor looked at me dressed in the clothes I was in and decided in his heart that we didn't need the money and gave it to someone else rather that what the speaker told him to do.  He also didn't offer us the preaching slot.  This came about because of his judgement toward us and what he saw on the outside not on what he was told by the speaker to do.

After having this dream I processed this and wondered if I had to change anything in me because at the time we needed the money and we were praying for doors to open to preach and so the dream was relevant but because of the clothes and his judgements toward us, he didn't give it to us.  I asked the Lord whether I needed to change my clothes or my hair and he said no, he had called me to dress like this because earlier in the year the Lord talked to me about dressing in bold clothes, but I had no bold clothes and we live by faith and didn't have the money, so after someone else spoke to me the same thing that he believed the Lord was saying to me to dress up and wear bold clothes, I said to the Lord, "well Lord I believe you are telling me to wear bold clothes, so you are either going to have to provide the clothes or the money for the clothes", and by that afternoon God had provided the clothes, all beautiful expensive labelled clothes and bold and so it was confirmation that the Lord wanted me to dress up and to look smart.

James 2:1. "My brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don't show favouritism.  Suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in shabby clothes also comes in.  If you show special attention to the man wearing fine clothes and say "Here's a good seat for you," but say to the poor man, "you stand there" or "Sit on the floor by my feet," have you not discriminated and become judges with evil thoughts?
After having my dream I realize this too works both ways, we can judge on the outside and assume people are doing well and so not respond to what the Lord can be saying because of what we are judging by what we see by sight, but not by the spirit.  Something the Lord has taught me over time and something I am still learning to do is to move by faith and not question all the time in my own understanding and step out on what the Lord says to me.

So in those judgements we have made, we stop what the Lord may be wanting to do through me for others.  But the measure we judge it will be measured to you.  Because I am prophetic I pick up judgements towards me in the spirit really easily but the Lord has been teaching me how to surrender to him the criticisms, the judgements, the things that don't line up with his words and what he would say, to him, and so not come into a place of rebellion and striving to be who I am, despite what people may think, because of wanting to be accepted by people.  That desire in our lives to be accepted by man, wanted by man, will always leave us in a place of disappointment because the only one we can trust is Jesus.  Jesus took all those judgements towards us to the cross, he took all those misunderstanding and misinterpretations to the cross, he took all the hurtful things for us and buried it in the grave, only to rise victorious and overcome and now is seated in heavenly realms far above all of that.  And because we believe in Jesus that too is our position, no longer nailed to the cross with judgements etc. and so we need to leave them behind and not pick up what would come your way either physically or spiritually.  I can feel the judgements come to me in the spirit but I choose to give them to Jesus, they are his because I am hidden in him, they are not mine and we can trust that Jesus knows everything and sees everything and that he is our vindicator and he knows all of our wounds, all of our needs and he is our healer, he is our restorer of everything that the enemy would like to steal from us and so we wait for him to do that knowing and believing by faith he will as we put our trust in him.

James 4:11. Brothers, do not slander one another.  Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it.  When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgement on it.  There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy.  But you - who are you to judge your neighbour?"

In writing this I too realise that I have judgements on a daily basis that I make towards others but as the Lord is teaching me, I am releasing others from the judgements I am making toward them.  God is growing me as I learn the revelation of how it feels towards me and so I am trying not to do it to others and he enables me to see others how he sees them.